No, you’re not confused. That does read “Tuesday” and not “Thursday”. Yes, today is Tuesday.
See, on Thursday we will be announcing grand prize winners plus individual contest winners for Love Spanks 2013! Since Thursday is my usual thankfulness day, I’m shifting my post two days early. Oh, come on. It’s not good to get set in your ways.
Today I have a heavy heart. I’m quite annoyed that people I love are having a hard time. Illness, accidents, job loss…it’s been a hard week for many people. The more we enlarge our circle of people close to us, the more we hurt when bad things happen to them. It’s worst when the nicest people I know are the ones who have the hardest time. So freaking unfair.
That said, it’s when things are difficult that we need thankfulness most of all. As an adolescent, I didn’t understand. I growled at people who told me to be grateful. Grateful? WTF? I had problems, dang it! And I did (oh shush, peanut gallery) and life was not easy and it is absolutely not true that adults have more difficulties than children. BUT…the older I grow, the more I learn to appreciate the tiny things I normally wouldn’t even notice. One of the most helpful statements in changing my attitude was, “What if I woke up today with only the things that I gave thanks for yesterday?” Not much, right? That got me thinking.
I started Thursday Thankfulness many, many weeks ago when I was struggling with difficulties in my life. For weeks, months even, I gritted my teeth and stomped my feet and said I’M NOT THANKFUL, DARN IT! But I kept at it, and soon enough the discipline of sitting down once a week to pretend to be thankful…turned into sitting down once a week to actually be thankful. Then I came to look forward to this moment each week.
I won’t say everything is easy now because it’s not. Absolutely not. Life is still unfair and crappy things happen. There is great value in accepting suffering for what it is and to give in to sorrow and anger and the emotions that are natural and healthy. Faking happiness doesn’t do anyone good. But…again but…if we allow room for these real emotions, sometimes we also can find ourselves cherishing the small moments.
Maybe we fall apart. Maybe sometimes things get to be too much and we need to melt down. Maybe there is a day that breakables should be kept out of our reach and we better get our darn wine or chocolate or else someone is going to get hurt.
But in the midst of it all…there is thankfulness. Won’t you join me today? I’d like to list some of my thankfulnesses and then hear yours.
- I’m thankful that it’s only 3.5 weeks until The Way Home comes out! No cover art yet (sigh), but pretty soon Kat and Natalie will have their official debut. Thank you, Lazy Day, for believing in their story.
- I’m thankful that a special project is taking shape and should be lovely. More details later.
- I’m thankful for a wonderful professional opportunity this week. To be perfectly honest it was super-sudden and I’m rather frantic trying to prepare for it, but it is a great chance. It is good to be excited about my work again.
- I’m thankful for an email from a friend telling me that her little girl has not stopped pestering her parents about when I will visit next. It’s been almost two months since I saw her last, and she is in that adorable three-year-old stage (okay, there are no non-adorable stages for little kids, except potty training) where she is bossy and loving and chattery. She has told my friend that her parents are NOT allowed to be in the house when I visit (normally we tell her that she needs to “share” me, but she reasons that since we haven’t gotten to play for a “leally leally long time” (she can’t say her “r”s) this date should be all about her). I’ve missed her so much. My friend too, of course, but well…even she knows that the little girl comes first. Maybe that’s why she hasn’t written for two months. :D.
- I’m thankful that another friend just shared with me that she is expecting a baby! She’s not out of the miscarriage-danger period yet, but she is doing well. I can’t wait. I hear that another friend of mine makes adorable pumpkin baby hats, too. The *only* disadvantage is that she lives nearly an hour away. I said that I’ll have the baby and she can have visitation rights every other weekend. For some reason, she wouldn’t agree to that. Some people are so unreasonable. 🙂
- I’m thankful that Love Spanks was such a rousing success! Thank you to everyone who participated, either as a blogger or a reader. Thankful to everyone who donated prizes so we can have such a great announcement on Thursday.
- I’m thankful that a certain naughty friend of mine received a much-needed paddle in the mail. Maybe my naughty friend will become a slightly naughty less friend, at least temporarily. 😀