Love Spanks 2015: Desire for Forgiveness

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After I wrote Desire in Any Language and Mira’s Miracle, I always planned to write a third book. Things got complicated, though, so the plans never came to fruition. Instead, I wrote a serial on my blog called Fire of Desire (list of links is here)describing what happens after Mira and Hana’s happily ever after. (Hint: It takes a while to get to “happily.”) Trinity, the Nurse from Mira’s Miracle, visits them in Korea…and gets tangled up in affairs of love. Her former Domme and lover, Graciela, comes to the rescue–but at a price. Trinity must pay for her unprofessional behavior.

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Mistress on Her Knees: Desire for Forgiveness

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Thou shalt not covet thy host’s submissive

When a Domme loves a Domme, strange things can happen. When a Domme loves a Domme who is her former submissive and cheated with her best friend, all of the usual fun with handcuffs turns into something darker.

Graciela struggles to control her attraction to the headstrong, beautiful woman who broke her heart ten years ago. She offers temporary shelter to a fellow human in crisis, nothing more. But when Trinity buckles under Graciela’s righteous anger and begs for forgiveness, Graciela’s resolve wavers. Can she ever trust again? Does Trinity deserve a second chance, or is this yet another manipulation?

About Anastasia Vitsky

Cookie queen, wooden spoon lady, and champion of carbs, Anastasia Vitsky specializes in F/F erotic fiction. She hates shoes and is allergic to leather. When not writing about women who live spankily ever after, she coordinates reader and author events such as Spank or Treat, Love Spanks, and Sci Spanks. Her favorite event is Ana’s Advent Calendar, a month-long celebration of books, community, and making a difference.

She is too afraid to watch Doctor Who, but she adores The Good Wife and anything with Audrey Hepburn. In her next life, she will learn how to make the perfect pie crust.

Mistress on Her Knees is her sixteenth publication. Other notable works include Taliasman, Mira’s Desire, Simple Gifts, The Way Home, Lighting the Way, and Becoming Clissine. Forthcoming books include Living in Sin, Ana Adored, Freiya’s Stand, Seoul Spankings, and a sequel to Taliasman.

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81 thoughts on “Love Spanks 2015: Desire for Forgiveness

  1. awesomesub says:

    Hi Ana, I love this scene, Graciela does use some power play here, and she is right in doing this, I’d say. Trinity is still stubborn and it takes such a long while for her to humble herself. And although Graciela is my star, she is pretty adamant here, isn’t she? (not obviously mumsy, but she does care!)

    Graciela can do that because after all these years the conflict between her and Trinity is still not solved. And both of them are aware of Trinity’s part in this. She betrayed Graciela’s trust, therefore Graciela is in the superior position which leaves the morally inferior position for poor Trinity. She messed up completely and making up for her betrayal will take time and effort. … Even more so with Graciela who seems to have perfect ideas of how to achieve this catharsis for Trinity. But contrary to Trinity I do see that Graciela is still too much in love with Trinity and there will be a loving reunion for them.

    The whole scene reminded me a lot of a trial where the sinner has to do penance that is honest and will cleanse the poor soul from sin. Graciela as a judge appears quite aloof in some ways, but she is right in there, focused on Trinity. … I am just glad that I am not in Trinity’s position! And finally Trinity accepts this inevitable fate of hers and gives in, willing to be left with a broken soul, should Graciela decide that way. I think this is a wonderful moment, where Trinity appears defeated, but actually can be built up again more complete than before by Graciela. Thank you for this scene, I can’t wait for the rest of it!

    hugs

    Nina

    P.S. I am not sure if I am Ambassador or not, but definitely a reader 🙂

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    • Anastasia Vitsky says:

      Hehe still carrying the torch for Gracie, I see! Can she do *any* wrong in your eyes? 😀

      I think, using your word, that in a way she *is* mumsy. Moms care. They get in and get their hands dirty, they yell at you to do things, and they are willing to get frustrated. Without the BDSM element and kneeling, I think we could see the same dynamic in a mom and a teenage daughter–screaming, fighting, both angry and hurt and sure the other isn’t listening.

      I am glad I’m not Trinity, too, but at the same time the penance (as you say) and cleansing is exciting. Even this could be forgiven? Wow!

      Hugs.

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      • awesomesub says:

        Hi Ana, I cannot imagine that ‘Graciela’ and ‘wrong’ go well together in one sentence. 😀

        That’s why it must be so difficult to live with her at times. But she is one who really cares, and I think otherwise she wouldn’t bother to teach Trinity a lesson. This is not cruelty, or playing with Trinity. For me this looks as if it is necessary to get rid of Trinity’s guilt, definitely about getting rid of some sort of resentment from Graciela’s side and all in all it is important to wipe the slate clean for both of them. And then they could live together in peace and harmony, … until Trinity blunders again. 😀

        I love both of them and I think that Graciela must have to endure horrible inner conflicts and I imagine that she is close to drowning in her own confusion too (faceslap!?).
        That’s where her own standard and expectations probably save the day for her, and she remains in control.
        At other times her own high standards might actually add to her problems. So, Graciela is strong because she wins against herself and I only hope that she never loses touch to her own weaknesses. Then she would be more like the Snow queen, beautiful and able to seduce, but horrible and freezing the souls around her. … I love the warm-hearted Gracie!

        Forgiving cheating …. that is difficult and I do not want to test that with hubby for sure! I am not sure how I could work through such a situation and just thinking about that is terrible. There is nobody who I trust more, and see that trust betrayed is the worst that could happen. So, I don’t know if I were able to forgive, but I would try hard and work on that.

        … Just thinking about this wants me to add ten more with the wooden spoon to Trinity’s punishment! Bad girl!

        hugs

        Nina

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        • Anastasia Vitsky says:

          Ha! Gracie should hire you to be her PR woman. 😀 And yes, I am sure Gracie will never lack for reasons to spank her girl.

          In an ordinary way, for sure she would not slap Trinity. At least, not unless she was fairly sure Trinity wanted it. (And by wanted, I mean would find it exciting/arousing, not “wanted” as in being a brat.) But I think the slap does what it’s supposed to do. It shocks Trinity into listening, and it’s the first crack in her armor.

          It looks like cruelty from Trinity’s side because she can’t trust Gracie. After all, Gracie threw her out once.

          There’s a lovely, lovely scene of reconciliation to come…all the more lovely because we delve into this quagmire of hurt first. It makes the kissy-kissy worth it. 😀

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          • awesomesub says:

            I do get that the slap is needed here and that it enables Trinity to listen.
            It is a bit like doing the unexpected for kids, to stop unwanted behaviour, isn’t it? I mean, Trinity is really not too willing at first, so with all her walls up nothing of what Gracie wants to achieve could get through.
            …And they do deserve their reconciliation and I can’t wait for the kissy-kissy!

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            • Anastasia Vitsky says:

              I’m glad so many readers have picked up on this because the slap was SO hard for me to write. I mean, it happened (that wasn’t hard), but I re-wrote that scene a dozen times trying to take out the slap…and it didn’t work. Talking about it this way makes me understand why it happened.

              And extra spanks for Trinity! *winces* Ouch. By the time Gracie is finished with her, I don’t think Trinity will want to put a pinky finger without permission.

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    • Anastasia Vitsky says:

      It’s such a dilemma, isn’t it? Gracie’s scary, but the alternative would be kicking Trinity out. So I feel sorry for Trinity, but I don’t.

      Thank you so much for playing! And since you’ve visited all the blogs, you will get to be a VIP for future events (except Ana’s Advent Calendar).

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  2. Tina S. says:

    Wow Ana! I hope Trinity know what she’s getting herself into. I am very curious to find out what happened that Trinity would cheat and not just once.
    VIP/AMB

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    • Anastasia Vitsky says:

      You know, I still struggle to understand it. Trinity had it all, and then she threw it away. If someone had Gracie, why would she ever cheat? But, as you know, people cheat for no good reason. I think we’ll never figure it out. Hugs.

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  3. AFOdom says:

    I love the depth of emotion in this scene, bringing the past and the present together in simply written but highly effective energy. My heart aches for both of them. I can’t wait until my pre-order turns into a real book. 🙂

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    • Anastasia Vitsky says:

      Maybe when you’re allowed to leave the corner… 😀

      I loved writing this scene! It hurt so much, but at the same time it was liberating. I’ve been exploring themes of forgiveness lately, and I’m in awe of people who can forgive and stay in a relationship with someone who crossed the ultimate line.

      I hope you like the rest of the book!

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  4. Joelle Casteel says:

    wow, that was almost a difficult read- I so empathized with Trinity and ended up disliking Graciela. I can’t wait to finish the story 🙂 I have to see about the pre-order. VIP, A, Amb

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    • Anastasia Vitsky says:

      It’s funny! Some people take Gracie’s side, and others take Trinity’s. I don’t personally think I could forgive a cheater, so (while Gracie is terrifying here) I respect Gracie for not giving up. But…wow. Messy.

      Hope you enjoy the rest of the story. Thank you!

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      • Joelle Casteel says:

        I do think that it’s more a comment on me though, Anastasia… I buck against mono-normativity so that I struggle to accept “cheating” at face value.

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  5. Shannon Love says:

    That was incredibly intense. I found it particularly difficult to continue when Trinity’s face was slapped. I became quite fearful of Graciela. I do remember the damage Trinity caused and the sins of the past so I’m definitely looking forward to the full story. It’s hard to believe at this point that there’s a happy ending for these two and right now in this clip, the characters seem to feel the same way. (VIP)

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  6. ssaradaniel says:

    Wow, very intense. This is my first introduction these characters, and they clearly have a lot to work through to get to a HEA. Very emotional.

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    • Anastasia Vitsky says:

      It is intense, isn’t it? I worried whether it would be too dark to put up, but I love the raw realness of their emotions. I had to go back and put in some lighter scenes, or people would need Xanax to get through the book. 😀

      Thank you for reading!

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  7. SH says:

    Oh Em Gee, March 1st can not get here fast enough…..grrrr Graciela is scary and I actually feel sorry for Trinity although, she also deserves what she is gonna get. And did I read right… there is gonna be a sequel to this book?! How will I ever survive cuz I am sure you will torture….ahem…tease us some more 🙂

    VIP

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    • Anastasia Vitsky says:

      Hehe. But you’re so cute when you’re being tortured. 😀

      I agree Trinity deserves everything she gets (actually she is lucky Gracie took her in), but yes. Gracie is scary!

      I hope there will be a sequel. I have it half planned, but I’ll have to see the response to the first one. Sales, sales, sales. 😀

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  8. JoanneBest says:

    I decided to go back and reread the stories that led up to this scene to refresh my swiss cheese memory. It’s all in my head and I still feel the sting of the slap across Trinity’s face. While I totally agree with your stance on face slapping, I guess maybe Graciela thought it was important for Trinity to realize how strongly Graciela felt about how wrong Trinity’s behavior was, so she wouldn’t let you *not* write it.
    I need to read/reread everything, all at once together to fully understand the complicated dynamics between these amazing women, my emotions are all over the place, and I haven’t yet read what happened at The Castle (because I impulsively read Taliasman and The Way Home and Sci Spanks and Spank or Treat, you get the idea, before reading Mira’s Miracle as someone ,ahem, 😀 suggested, no wonder I put myself in the corner lol)….um, I did have a point, lol.
    I guess sometimes love is so complicated and emotions and intent, what’s right under certain circumstances and wrong under others, doing something because it’s actually good for someone else or doing it for selfish reasons, whether you realize it or not, I wish I could express myself better right now, I guess what I’m trying to say is I could put myself in both Graciela and Trinity’s places (especially G’s yoga pants, lol, my favorite things to live in when I can lol, yep, that’s all I meant 😉 ) as well as Mira and Hana’s, (but that’s your fault, you writer you! :D) and what a tangled beautiful mess love can make of us all, if we’re lucky that is ❤
    Damn, this kicked me in the gut in so many ways I can't even read the rest of the spanks because I can't get any of this out of my mind! So I'm reading Mira's Miracle immediately and spending tomorrow getting spanked all over the place! I mean, you know, reading everything else so I can give everything my full concentration, as they deserve ❤

    PS: Ya know, I've never preordered a book in my life, ever, and you've got me preordering 2! Back to my self imposed exile/corner until tomorrow, but I'm bringing Mira and Hana and Nurse Trinity with me! 😛 lol
    Also, I think I'm supposed to put VIP because of last year's Love Spanks ❤

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    • Anastasia Vitsky says:

      LOL Joanne. And after all that time in the corner, you still didn’t come out to play last night! Come today. We’re doing the online roleplay spanking with Evil Mistress Kate (aka Kate Richards).

      Yay! Thank you for pre-ordering! ❤ I hope you like Mira's Miracle. And wow, you have been busy! Thank you for all of your reading.

      I don't think Gracie made a conscious choice here, but that it was reflex/instinct. When Trinity was her submissive, and if she had behaved this badly, she would have been punished but within certain limits. At the same time, I think the shock of the slap is what makes Trinity start to accept her role. Gracie can't forgive her until she punishes Trinity, and Trinity can't allow herself to be punished until she can trust Gracie will forgive her.

      what a tangled beautiful mess love can make of us all…isn't that the truth! Total mess, and yet we're lucky to have it. Ah, life. What a mess. 😀

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  9. Laurel Lasky says:

    I also had a problem with the face slapping, I find it to be upsetting even though Trinity probably deserved it. I did preorder so when I receive it I may change my mind.
    Hugs,
    Laurel

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    • Anastasia Vitsky says:

      Personally, I don’t think face slapping is ever deserved. It’s wrong and disrespectful. But is it understandable in the circumstances? Maybe? I am not sure I would be able to let someone back into my life who cheated on me, so perhaps this was how Gracie got her anger out.

      I’d love to hear what you think after reading the whole book!

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  10. renee200 says:

    Hmmm… Thou shall not say never again. All of Trinity’s nevers seem to be become maybe’s when Graciela is in charge. Poor Trinity is trying to protect herself in the arena of love while poor Graciela is trying to do the same thing. They are both so focused on protecting themselves that they can’t see the others pain.
    LOL… How frustrating it must be when characters just won’t do what the writer wants. It’s as if they know what will make the story more real. Your characters have been quite stubborn lately.

    Can’t wait to read this whole story to see how they get their HEA. I did preorder. Don’t know if I can figure out the whole receipt/email process but I will try. Blessings. R

    rameyer.nmb@gmail.com
    VIP

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    • Anastasia Vitsky says:

      It’s as if fate laughs whenever we say never. 😀 I have learned not to say the word myself because I have to eat my words more often than not.

      You’re right…it does make the story more real, but I gasped after I wrote it. I did not want it to happen, especially not from a “good” character.

      And don’t worry. I’ll mark you down for pre-ordering. Thank you! Yay!

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  11. Lisa says:

    Ana I have read all your excerpts about Mira,Hanna, and Gracelia and they are all so good I may have to buy the book so I can read it all.. Love it!

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  12. mrenn2014 says:

    Wow, Ana, I had a hard time reading this segment. The face slapping is hard thing to read. I could never imagine allowing anyone to slap me or slap anyone else! But, I read through all the comments and your answers and I understand better. It’s still a hard limit for me. Now, I’m on Trinity’s side here. In this scene, I think Trinity was correct. Graciela did not think of Trinity when she threw her out all those years before. Why should Trinity trust her now? I really can’t wait to read the rest of the story. I know there is more information that I need.
    You are a such a great author!
    VIP
    mrenn@nycap.rr.com

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  13. pao says:

    This felt really intimate and personal, somehow. I think it’s because of the slapping (that was really hard to read and surprising). Slapping always feels like a very personal reaction to deeply hurtful action (given their circumstances and their relationship previously, I can understand why). The story feels heavy with past hurts… like a suffocating mix of self blame, disappointment and resentment between both Graciela and Trinity. It would be really interesting to read Graciela’s point of view in this scene… because she does seem like she still feels the sting of the past betrayal but she still cares about Trinity to want to help her right those wrongs. It’s so complex, there are so many undertones here 🙂 I’ll just wait to read the rest of the story!

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    • Anastasia Vitsky says:

      Oh yes, this is Trinity at her lowest point in her life. Very intimate. I don’t think there are circumstances that make face-slapping right…but at the same time we are human and do make mistakes.

      Gracie’s tired of having to rescue Trinity, which is honestly quite fair. Still not easy to be Trinity, though!

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  14. Mary M. says:

    The face-slapping was hard to read but I think Trinity was so ensconced in her current self-destructive path that Graciela had to do something shocking to get her to refocus. I preordered MOHK and Love Spanks and hope they work things out somewhere in all those pages!

    VIP emmasmom69 AT gmail DOT com

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  15. steve says:

    johnny 5 needs more input. I liked what you gave us and although I usually don’t go for that kind of story I cant wait to get the full story
    thanks

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  16. Kyra Tinker says:

    I don’t know why, but I just realized who Mistress on Her Knees was about. I loved all of Mira’s stories and did not realized what I missed. I have to pre order this. I want to see how Graciela submits to Trinity.
    This was an amazing excerpt. I do admit I do not enjoy reading about slapping scenes…but this one did not make me cringe.
    Awesome job Ana!!

    Kyratinker36@gmail.com. VIP

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  17. Author Jessica E. Subject says:

    Talk about a tease! I think it’s you who deserves a spanking for cutting the scene there, just before the good part. I look forward to reading more! 🙂

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    • Anastasia Vitsky says:

      Hehe..well…if I disobeyed my *own* rule, what credibility would I have to enforce it later? Believe me, I considered it. 😀 And you can read the full story in a few days. I won’t get a spanking android for eons!

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  18. catrouble says:

    Wow Ana.. On the one hand, I understand that Trinity needs to be punished for what she did but on the other, Graciela is being awfully harsh!. She is one scary Domme! Wouldn’t want to cross her! What a heck of a place to stop!

    Hugs and Blessings…
    Cat VIP AMB
    catsbrigheyes at gmail dot com

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  19. pieclown says:

    Wow, she knows she did wrong, but has the bride to not knee. Trinity may have been a sub, but she will go back with out a fight. A was not a fight of fists, but of wills. I did like it. Oh it was great fun last night. I hope you got some sleep
    Pie pie 4 now

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  20. Julie says:

    Hi Ana! It’s so hard to decide what to say, or how I feel. I know I’m in the minority in my feelings towards Graciela, and this scene definitely pushes buttons for me. (Not the slap, though. I think it fits Graciela perfectly; it’s easy to understand why you couldn’t remove it.)

    But the scene is amazing. So intense, and very, very dark. Trinity’s confusion about herself does make her behavior towards Mira at least a little easier to understand, and Graciela’s anger towards Trinity is clearly deep and painful. And I think everyone agrees that, given how scary a “normal” Graciela is, an angry Graciela is someone to avoid.

    As with all of the installments, I’m anxious to see it in the context of their complete story. I keep wondering if I’ll see the Graciela others see.

    Very nice! Now, as usual, it’s time for me to think. 🙂

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    • Anastasia Vitsky says:

      I will be really interested to see how you respond to the ending.

      This was the first scene I wrote for this book (as I knew it would be the Love Spanks preview and had to be done earliest), and it’s still my favorite. There’s so much power, and two powerful women…I know you love Kat, but she isn’t powerful the way Trinity is. Granted, she is a lovely character in her own right. 🙂 But Natalie can make Kat submit with very little effort.

      I can’t wait for you to read the whole story. 🙂

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  21. chickie says:

    I was already expecting the slap and f-bomb going into this and it still shocked me! I have a soft spot for Trinity. I’m not on her side so much as I feel bad for the situation. There’s a lot of professions where you’re not supposed to get emotionally involved in the case, such as nurses or child case workers. Try as you might you’re still going to get caught up sometimes. Trinity has feelings – and bad decisions. Her stubbornness, yes that’s real too. I don’t care how wrong I am sometimes I’m just not going to back down until I’m completely broken. Yes, sometimes the shock of something so not okay is what breaks through.

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    • Anastasia Vitsky says:

      Ha, I didn’t think about you knowing ahead of time. But yes, it’s shocking because *Trinity* is shocked. Also, I still feel a bit guilty having it in the story.

      And yes, no matter what Trinity did, it is an awful situation. Facing up to our wrongs is one of the hardest things we will ever do, especially when it means hurting someone else.

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  22. Teresa Wymore says:

    Oh Anastasia…gut-clenching stuff. Trinity and Gracie, what a delicious coupling. You’ve upped the ante here. SLAP. Wow. Yum. A “real” submissive–hahaha! Gracie is such a bitch and good at manipulation. She knows Trinity’s reckless ambition in all things. She knows T will always try to prove her wrong. “Too fucking late”–T is raw, unbridled, at her limit. Ah, but I know you. You wanted her to drop to her knees right away, give in, give up, repent, and have that HEA. But you kept her defiant. That’s my Trinity. That’s my Ana 😉
    FF

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    • Anastasia Vitsky says:

      LOL You prefer to live life dangerously, I see. Gracie is furious, and with good reason. Of course her fury is equal parts about past and present, but she still does have good reason to be angry.

      And Trinity…I love that she fights. I don’t like that it takes the story in a darker direction, but at the same time it makes the resolution all the more satisfying. I wonder what you will think of the ending!

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  23. Michelle MAB says:

    Thrilling! Having followed your progress over the years, this new chapter was like peeling off a layer from your shoulders to give us a glimpse of the true “Anastasia Vitsky” behind the words. Keep it up and I hope it sells well! 😀

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